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SO I JUST DIDN'T HAVE THE WORST AWKWARD TURTLE EVER.

this weekend.

This weekend has been the BEST ever! i friking love my family too much! i would do anything or them!
tbh im in one of those moods where i want to cuddle,
i really miss ross and i feel like cwtching in bed and cuggling, im sick of waiting now! all these new couples get to do this why can't i :( a cuggle.. to muuch to ask </3

been a while..

Its been ages since I've been on here so this is going to be a long one!!
I don't know whats wrong with my lately I don't have a good reason to feel down, but I do , I mean looking at this charity thing in school and so many people have it bad! I have a loving family, a house, food, good school even though I moan, a good boyfriend and friends, but yet i still feel meh! I could be in a crowd of people and still feel so lonely. Today was the worst for it, some people noticed some didn't, i don't feel like im there and daze off into my own world all the time"
Alika has made my day as she wants me to go to her BBQ tomorrow but i cant :( but its nice to know im wanted! love her <3
Its bad because before i started opening up to Ross more and more and was really making progress, but lately im closing up again and i havent told him soooo much :( the thing is i want to, but i can never bring it up, i was going to tell him earlier but he texted me right before work how are you? im not exactly going to text a life story and depress him right before work right? I don't wanna moan but i know that no one will  actually read this so its ok, just nice to let it all out..
Ahh i dunno, exams are getting to me and i just cba with anyone at the moment, probz due on or summin.

been a while

havent been on here in a while..
have so much coursework!! :(
let all my emotions out today to my mamma, felt so good, i love her <3

overall mood: content

emotional

Ahhh i hate this emotional moood! I have nothing to be upset over, well nothing big yet im upset. I want to let it out but you know when you dont want to bring it up randomly. I mean ross texted me saying how are you , and i said shit, and he asked why, but i didnt want to text it all so i said dw. I just want a big cuddle :( And I hate seeing one of close friends upset because of something her ex said, which was sooo rude!!
overall mood: bleh

overall mood..

I decided from now on at the end of each blog i am going to put my overall mood :) Had a nice day down my bamps celebrating Tyrells birthday <3 But my bamps and nan could tell something was up with me :/ Im letting something really small and stupid get to me but i cant help thinking about it :( My mum keeps asking whats wrong, but I can't tell her , like one of the only things i can't :/ Having a drink with her later to get my mind of things , aww i love her <3

Overall mood: confused, almost paranoid

girls...

i really hate how bitchy girls are :/ No one has actually pissed me off personally,, but looking at facebook and people status's some are just horrible and mean its realy uneeded. Putting personal stuff about other people to embaress them its disgusting. Boys are so much easier to get on with bloody  hell....

time..

time is the best healer <3

x

Went to noodle box with caitlin for lunch then played on sing star :D Aww we're such kids! (L) Coursework now though :(

emotional..

Ive had a really good day today , went to lunch with ross, chris and his mum :) I was really nervous but she was really nice and funny :D Then we went shopping and watched Yogi bear. Im having one of those emotional days today. And atm I just feel like a i cba with anyone, im feeling really paranoid today, and something happened earlier hasnt helped but i think i made too much of a big deal and regret it now. From now on im just going to be there for my family and Ross, because i feel like i try and try and be there for people, but no one is ever there when i need them the most :/ I probz wont feeel like this in the morning, i hate this feeling tbh :( Towards the end of the day i was being quite off with ross which i regret because now i miss him and dont know when im going to next get to see him :( Its hard having the feeling off saying goodbye at the end of the day knowing it could be up to a week where i could next see him. Cant wait till im older and free to do what i want, i feel like such a child today :(

Didn't know when you clicked new question it changed :( So heres my old frog story ...

There once was a bald frog who had a best friend that was also bald. They promised to be bald together forever! But one day the frog , Sam met a girl on the way to his bingo night, they talked all night long and fell in love!! She asked Sam to marry her, but only if he started to wear a wig. Sam didnt know what to do , but then suddenly it hit him BRO'S BEFORE HO'S! So sam told Lilly no and she left him. Sam and Tony were best friends forever!The moral of this story is never break a promise :D x

CUPCAKES

Ohh how could i forget!! My mammma made some LUSH cupcakes, soo yuumy <3

shattered..

Im really tired and i shouldn't be,, all ive done today is coursework, which isnt that tiring as im just sitting. Going to have a shower then straighten my hair and watch a film i think :) Looking forward to tomorrow meeting Chris's mum, but actually really nervous at the same time :P I need a new phone :( It wont let me use any of my minutes its so annoying ¬_¬

coursework..

Actually proud of the amount of work I've done today considering i was i the cba mood :) .. Only have a bit of business left to do,, and i learnt nearly all of my drama lines :D Still have all of my P.e to do!! Going to have to spend ages on it :( Oh and art haha x

home alone..

So im home alone again :( Urggh i really hate being home alone, not because im scared, well i do freak myself out, i just dont like the feeeling :( I would be so terrible if i lived on my own, which i NEVER want to do ! Not gonna be a good day today,, going to do business coursework, hopefully finish it all :( Then start on P.E :'( x

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Hate it when you read something and you wish you didnt, and your stomach drops :( Im in a weird mood tonight, im going from one extreme to the other, i think its because i didnt get any sleep last night. Bed time for me now, have a bit of  a lay in then coursework all day tomorrow, oh the fun :( </3

soo so cutee!!

Such a lush picture!! From the best film ever dirty dancing! Aww i find this picture so romantic, anyone else it would look dirty but i find it sooooo cuute!!! I would love to live in times like in this film <3

lyrics i love but my family would have a heart attack if i put them on fb :L

Cause I may be bad
But I’m perfectly good at it
Sex in the air
I don’t care
I love the smell of it
Sticks and stones
May break my bones
But chains and whips
Excite me [8]

Two G's In A Pod!! :D

Another lush day :) Had Ross round for a bit today, can't put this on facebook so its nice to say on here :) It was nice because it made me think what it would be like if we lived together <3 We then went into town shopping and he treated me to Nando's! I feel spoilt [a] Love how little things make your day, we were walking through town + i felt a right mess and he turned around and said " your just absolutely beautiful" and it gave me butterflies and make me feel all weird ( good weird ) like when we were first going out :P Then he bought despicable me and we went back to mine and watched it with my mum dad and brother :D Oh and i saw my uncle in town who is the same age as me who i havent seen since i was 5! :S So that was weird for me I hope i see him soon again. Looking forward and nervous at the same time to meeting Chris's mum on Thursday :D xx Oh and haha a new phrase i leant from Ross which i love! LIKE 2 G'S IN A POD HAHA xD

:)

With Caitlin,Charile and Alika atm. I look like shit! But dont really care tbh learnt to deal with looking like crap without mah makeup :') Leaving in a bit to go home and get ready then have Ross round for a bit before we go out <3 Had a good night. Bummed though as Josey invited me round hers tomorrow and i cant go because of stupid stupid coursework :'( Hopefully she'll get all the girls round again soon and i can go <3